Time for a New Beginning

Hello, old friend.

When I was starting to find myself in sexual situations I've never been in before, you were there for me to write it out, and sort out my feelings.

When I felt trapped in my last relationship, you were there when I cheated to find out what I really wanted.

I wanted out.

Now, it's time for a rebirth. The theme of 2011 for me has been "Letting go, and moving on."

I'm a different person now, a different kind of girl.

I'm no longer someone's kitten.

I am owned, but I am still me.

I am submissive, but I am in control of my actions.

I am able to talk to my partner (Brian, if you remember me talking about him a year or so ago) about how I truly feel without fear of hurting his feelings.

I am able to be with someone who feels possessive of me, but not bristle. In fact, I enjoy it. A lot.

A part of me wishes I had more of a high protocol D/s relationship, but I also enjoy the fluidity. We're equals mentally. Physically, I belong at his feet, and my body belongs to him.

His touch, no matter how gentle, makes me moan & cherish the moment.

I beg for his hand around my throat often.

When he spanks me, I marvel at his strength, and fear for when the amount of pain he inflicts upon me escalates.

The thought of it escalating makes me wet.

When I've done wrong, he punishes me by not touching me. Or allowing me to touch him. It hurts, but it makes me learn my lessons quickly.

The sensations he gives me are overwhelming. I get dopamine rushes every day. Who needs heroin when I have him?

He is consistent. He establishes patterns and follows them. I love that.

I am owned, but I'm still me. And if I asked him what he thought my pseudonym should be, he'd probably say, "Whatever you want it to be."

He'd make me make the decision for myself, while offering little input. Because, at the end of it, we're all in this for ourselves. No matter how frustrating it can be.

As for this blog? I haven't decided what I'm going to do with it. The pictures have been removed from the server they were hosted on, and, frankly, I can do with a new look.

I'm thinking about registering a domain, and obtaining webhosting. Might check out a few webhosts. Not GoDaddy. Not Verio. Not HostGator. I have my reasons.

Time to curl back up with Master & my kindle and take another nap. Our landlord should be back in a few hours to continue work on our shower.

Take care of yourselves, loves, because you're the only person who knows what is best for you.